had a bad day

Something bad happened this day and I felt like a burk.It made me realize that i can't make my OWN decision and that I am no certain with so many things 'bout me.

The only things I am certain of me are that I am scared.Afraid of what others might think of me.I am ignorant.Stupid.A moron.Ugly.A freak----you may say that.I am jealous.Uncontented. Insecure.Worried.A liar. I am a sinner. Always neglected. Misplaced. Mistreated. Rejected.Disregarded.I'm more like of a loser.Too pathetic huh?

Behind my every smile is a tear. Inside my happy face is a lonely girl. Happy? No. No. I'm too broken to be happy. I don't know. Stupid, huh? I....I am not too happy with this life.And never will be. My heart is so filled with emptiness, with confusion, with worries. I can't express myself and let others see my true colors. I just keep everything inside, in the heart I suppose. I'm afraid one day it'll just explode like a landmine when someone accidentally steps on it.

Too emotional. I guess I just had a bad day.

Tomorrow will be another day. I wish all this pain(?)--everything--will be gone.

I'm getting sleepy already.I know it's too early for this but...goodnight!